Our hearts are full, wide-open yet defined-
If the heart were to move outside of itself,
It would bleed, leak, explode or simply fall apart.
Definition has a strong purpose-
It is a discipline.
It is the drawn safety line, the zone of concentrated power from within defined space.
The heart is a beautiful muscle to exercise.
In order to engage this muscle there must be a partnership.
The heart never leads alone-
It never beats alone-
One pulse follows the other and it moves in the direction of unity or union always.
Union requires two-
If you look at the physical make-up of the heart, it's location and body attachments, you'll see partnership. The human heart has four chambers sectioned in two halves and a wall of muscle separates the two pairs. There is a double-walled sac that encases the heart. This serves as protection of the heart and anchors it inside the chest. To assist the circulatory function of the heart, you were given a pair of lungs and as an extension of the heart, you have a pair of arms and two breasts.
What do we do when we see something cute?
We say, awweee... and our arm moves automatically to place our palm quietly and naturally between our breasts, at the center of heart and we feel...
We connect and re-connect to ourselves and other people- - two sets of pairs.
The heart is so powerful, it is protected by many layers of definition-
The aura, skin, muscle, bones, even our minds-
Boundaries - Discipline
Protect the layers of life inside.
Anahata- (Anna Hottah) is the name of the heart-
It means, "unstruck" or "unhurt."
The heart, its beat-
Is the only function that causes sound without the physical striking of two things.
It is unstruck = yet it speaks.
It is unstruck = yet it is heard.
It is unhurt = yet it feels.
The name implies that beneath the hurts and grievances of the past,
Lies a pure spiritual place where no hurt exists-
The heart is a beautiful muscle to exercise and it invites the experience of connection.
You must come quiet and still...
If it's loud, you cannot hear the heart.
You must be silent, a witness, a presence-
A presence full of life.
You see, the heart reminds us, in order to create a spark - life!
You cannot go at it alone-
That in a way, it's physically impossible because the heart itself is made up of pairs.
You invest in yourself- It is the investment and you = Pairs.
You invest in others- It is you and another = Pairs.
You simply relate or form relationship.
The heart does not beat alone.
It does not lead alone.
One pulse follows the other in complete unification -
You are unified through your precious heart.
Now, that's a powerful experience!
- J. Circosta, ©2016
- I invite you to sit quietly inside your heart and be still, listen be a witness, a presence of full life for 1 week! - Write down your daily experience. Have fun with it!
- Beauty Notes, 2016
How do you get to know your Vast Eminent Source of Power?
You move (INSIDE) your being and recognize you are the Source.
Just like the waves,
There is no beginning and no end-
It is a fluid continuum of moving in and into each other.
Like the ease of breath-
A gentle exchange of existence and non-existence.
A carving and creation of infinity!
It is a mouth to mouth giving and receiving of energy-
That is energy - You Are Energy - Energize -
You cant make waves if you're not the ocean-
You can't touch the tips of your spirit,
If you're fully invested in soul.
- Beauty Quote, 2016
To BE the LIGHT Takes GUTS-
It stands for something greater than itself
It's easy to turn the light off
It's even easy to turn the light on
In order for light to sustain itself,
It has to generate from its source.
What do you stand for?
What do you value that's living and pulsing inside the blazing cavern of your gut?
That when you're ignited in perfect alignment, your source of energy incinerates habitual trappings and lightens your heart.
That now, standing in perfect alignment you are solid-
Immovable to the chaos and cunning influences of this world.
Of the flit and flickers of your passing mind, the tame and torture of your stories.
You are BRAND NEW
- Restored -
Transformed with in the BLAZE!
There is no more pain...
There is no more sorrow or post-apocalyptic past
You own these potent embers
You own your footing-
Because right here,
You Own Your Power-
- What do you stand for?
The connection in knowing yourself is your power
It is your identity
It's the culmination of where you came from,
Your creative ideas and who you are at the gut level-
It is the precious gems or city of jewels resting in your belly.
What are these jewels?
The jewels are your light, your sense of:
Who you are is directly related to your nervous system- your gut.
A strong nervous system, creates light from within, the empowerment of your jewels-
The center of understanding in your body’s nervous system is controlled by your navel point- your power. That is to say, the more you develop a greater sense of self; your level of confidence, esteem, value, worth, etc... The greater understand you will have of your innate network of power at the center of your being, at the level of- your gut.
To Be the Light Takes Guts-
- Where you came from: Who in your family gives you strength?
- Your creative ideas: What ideas about yourself empower you?
- Who you are: What do you do for yourself that empowers you?
Have fun with it!
- Beauty Notes, 2016
The center of creation, the point of pleasure, the wash of movement-
The spring of growth, widening of expansion, the connection...
Deep reservoir of care and nourishment, the sustainability of evolution.
The shelter of innocence that matures with each churn in cycle and motion, you soften-
Soften, tender, soft, you soften...
Inside the cradle, the cocoon, a safe and secured haven, an introduction to the power of vulnerability. A humbling discover, a vast space of endless possibilities- flowing, circulating, moving deeper and deeper into your cellular memory and even deeper now, into the essence that is- That Is You.
The source of energy alive and vibrant inside- emerge...
You emerge! You are born and re-born again and again, the cycle of sweetness residing inside the purity and profound passion of intimacy.
To the ocean inside-
The ebb and flow, receive and let go...
Sip in slowly the smooth taste of your breath
Comfort your Soul,
- What does it feel like to be in the flow?
- What are you allowing to flow in your life right now?
Write it down. Have fun with it!
In order to build a solid foundation, you must know yourself deeply. You must allow yourself to slip into an open honesty that becomes the profound inter-connection with the state and senses of your body. Weaving inside a spectacular moment of implicit communications in which, you begin to experience the solid center of belonging and sweetness, at the root of your being. As you continue downward, grounding deeper and deeper into the soul of your foundation, you are snuggled safe and secure within the depths of your innate wisdom moving moment to moment... and breath to breath...
It is an essential life-cycle exchange generating, from generation to generation
Have you ever felt that solid, that rooted inside your own skin?
When you work with the structure of your internal foundation, you establish the deepest connections inside the root of your being. You cultivate a sense of safety and stability. You feel safe and secure because you trust yourself intensely, remaining ever present in the moment of now--the moment of your truth.
- The Body Never Lies -
There is a vast storage of knowledge and wisdom inside the body's communications-
Do you listen... deeply...? Do you act purely of your body's communication and reach for intimacy and alliance..? How much do you actually trust yourself..?
In order to grow and expand in a strong and sustainable way, we must develop a solid foundation and root inside our structure. It is the most essential first part of self-care and it requires a focused presence with the deepest parts of yourself, the base of your being-- your roots.
Where do your roots come from?
This Month's Meditation Focus:
Building Foundation and Rooting inside our Structure
I saw the sweetest video this week of a mama otter snuggling her newborn baby otter pup while floating down stream together. When I watched this video the first time, I was just filled with sweetness and absolute joy! It was one of the cutest things I had ever seen. I posted it on my Facebook page and it turned out, many other people thought it was just as darling as well.
As I watched the video a few more times, I found myself slowly moving away from the obvious cuteness connection of these two beautiful otter's and suddenly, I felt myself focusing a little deeper on how the mother otter was holding her baby so close. I honed in on how mama’s arms wrapped around her baby gently and surrounded baby with affectionate snuggles and kisses to complete their journey down stream together.
I dropped my awareness down, even deeper inside myself and I began to see very clearly the depth of love mama was giving her baby pup. There was a great care and complete nurturing connection they shared together in "otter" purity and sweetness. My attention was no longer on the surface but now, my focus and understanding deepened. I was in fascination of how mama became her baby's foundation, as baby rested on mama's belly in the water. Even softer now, I connected to how securely yet mama held baby close yet, without restraint and repeatedly offered reassurance of love and affection every step of their way. I realized mama was building a solid foundation and intimate bond with her baby. Why, of course baby felt safe and secure. Of course, baby trusted her mama as they aimlessly floated down stream with no other protection but only that of her mama's arms and affection.
I sunk deeper inside and I realized that the basic needs of feeling safe and secure establishes our foundation and strengthens our ability to root in our structure. Our structure is developed and sustained from the level of deep care, nurture, and reassurance of the intimate bond created between parent and child.
From here, I fell...
Deep down, into the roots of my being and I saw the need. I saw the basic need in feeling safe and secure within myself. It was a glimmer, a chance witness to begin to build a solid foundation and intimate bond within myself.
The body never lies - you only need to listen.
Come into your own arms and explore the root of your being so you can re-build your foundation. Ask yourself these questions:
- Where do my roots come from and how are they repeating themselves in my current experience?
- How can I give myself more loving care, sweet nurture and sustainable reassurance to create a sense of deep internal safety and security?
Write it down. Have fun with it!
Meditation is the process of deconstructing the conscious mind within a direct line of enlightenment. The practice is to develop a very clear, distinct and specific connection between the emotional mind and the reasonable mind or intellect. This meeting of the minds if you will, is an evolutionary process that establishes a point of balance between what we sense and what we know. It creates a space of abundance in which the finite and infinite meet and merge as one unit or one consciousness.
Try this, take your thumb and the pointer finger of your left hand (intellectual mind) and link it like a chain to the thumb and pointer finger of your right hand (emotional mind). Now with a soft and wide gaze, look at the mid-point of the link. As you do this, you'll see the bigger picture, that within this merge a figure 8 symbol emerges or sign of infinity.
Eternity rests on the tips of your fingers.
So, it is this linkage and this lineage of universal consciousness that is your wise mind. The eye of peace, calm, and clarity or third eye. The fine point of light between enlightenment (intellect) and wisdom (emotion).
This Month's Meditation Focus: Observation
To observe is to look at a situation without getting drawn into it. It is refining the ability to feel without judgment and be a witness of action while noticing everything. This includes what you sense as well; what you see, hear, smell, feel, taste. Developing the skill of observation it is to have a complete immersion of experience without opinion, judgment, or criticism. The purity of observation is to take in information without stopping the flow of experience, the key element being non-judgment.
Observing is to take in information without stopping the flow of experience. So, when I think about the qualities of observing, I see a through line of action and energy. We know, pure observation is to witness without judgement which naturally leads to the freedom of non-attachment and finally rests peacefully within acceptance.
Observation is the foundational skill or seed of acceptance. It's very powerful. Think about it, it offers a chance to not change or fix anything or anyone. To be completely present and aware in the moment of now, immersed in the totality of what is--what is actual. This simple act releases a freedom natural to our being and leaves a trail of something clean and pure... The after taste is sweet and just.
Nothing is rejected - Everything is included.
So, when you practice the true form of observation what you're really practicing is acceptance. The acceptance of what is. You begin to craft the refinement of truth in the reality of NOW.
Now, take this moment for yourself.
Take in the information without stopping the flow of experience.
- Take a few raisins or carrots (anything you like) and begin to observe it for 5 mins. Set a timer and fully experience your time with your object of choice. Take in all the information- how it looks, feels, smells, tastes, what sounds does it make, can it make..?
- Notice what kinds of thoughts and feelings come up.
- Notice if any judgments, opinions, or criticisms enter your mind and experience.
Have fun with it!
If you don't let go and grow-
Than your experience is just a victim of circumstance.
- J. Circosta
Have you ever experienced the light of revelation? A complete moment of surprise, struck with awe of an otherwise unknown understanding that enlightens you and dramatically shifts your whole life experience--in the snap of a moment! Just like that, you receive a power that widens your point of view in an instant of knowledge. In an instant of knowing, you are given a broader scope of vision and the grace of complete understanding. Well, if you haven’t seen the light, I suggest you open your mind to it right away--it’s definitely worth the wait.
But seriously, how often can you say you experienced a revelation? Do you remember that precious moment in time--that instant spark of knowing? Can you think of those moments that changed the course of your life? I’ll go one better, do you remember having that “Ah-Ha!” moment, allowing that information to penetrate and then actually applying it to your life? Now, that’s the big one!
Life is full of questions but when we receive an answer, something magical happens…
That’s the mystical power and path of perspective that leads you to the gifts of revelation.
Perspective is the master guide of direction. It shows up wide and expansive dressed in full shades of intricately designed phenomenon. It nudges your comfort zones with gentle shifts in consciousness that influence a different set of choices, guiding your actions in ways that can course correct patterned behaviors. Perspective is a magician of sorts--invoking information behind the scenes of your mind and working to move it into proper placement. As it weaves its magic inside your mind, you get a glimpse of the illusion that keeps you comfortable from a vaster point of view. You see the whole picture--it’s a quick and fleeting moment and when you see it, you are struck! The protection of the illusion briefly falls away and you are given new choices needed for a successful outcome, in line with a deeper understanding for greater growth. You are enlightened and the life experience you once knew to be true is now changed forever.
These last 3 months have been pretty intense for me, as I’m sure it's been for many other people as well. I’ve faced 2 sudden deaths in my family, surgery, and some really old emotional issues making their way up into my awareness. It’s been my experience, when old emotional issues rise to consciousness awareness, life seems to set up the perfect circumstance to either continue the same emotional patterns and behaviors or really Open Eyes Wide to a different set of choices that can change the previous path of experience, for good.
A friend of mine appeared to drop the ball and left a team project without word or why, for such a sudden withdrawal and absence. I felt deeply hurt and bewildered by this action and I was put into a position of full responsibility that was intended to be divided between several players. Now, everything landed on my lap and I was made to look somewhat like a trouble maker. I felt angry, dejected, and deeply disappointed. Suddenly, I was alone and having that experience triggers a deep sense of abandonment for me. I needed some sense of connection and support by my friend who unexpectedly decided to leave the project.
And so the stage was set- The players took their places and the events replicated childhood issues of abandonment and rejection. I thought, here I am again--alone, disappointed and hurt. Well, the natural thing to do was to do what I always did. Put up my invisible steel wall of ice, stick my chin up, suck my gut in, stuff my pain down, and pretend my ex-friend, didn’t exist. My behavior would be such that I would isolate this person and myself and that would teach them! They would be taught a lesson, while I sat safe in my comfort zone.
But was I really comfortable...? Was I comfortable sitting in isolation...? Was I really comfortable cutting this person off as if they no longer existed? Was I comfortable swallowing my emotions and pretending I wasn’t hurt…? Was I comfortable feeling like the little girl who was left behind again… and now presently?
I really wasn’t comfortable at all…
That started me thinking. I began to think about different ways I could re-approach this circumstance. The different ways that would work toward a successful experience in my favor. I saw myself clearly falling into the same old, comfortable illusion that no longer worked for me. This time, I made a decision to make different choices in thought, circumstance and behavior.
I started right away! First thing I did was clarify the responsibility of all the players and my personal intention. That alleviated the feeling of taking on full responsibility as well as simplified my part in the whole. I thought about the other people I knew I could trust. Those people that consistently showed consideration of me and my feelings and I spent time with them. That eliminated self-isolation and was a great form of self-care and nurture. I took the steel wall of ice down and allowed myself to remain open and permeable to others, including my ex-friend, allowing acknowledgment without the people pleasing need to prove otherwise. This eliminated isolating other people, evaporated self-judgment as well as any judgments toward others. There was no, “That’ll teach them!” on the table because I accepted myself and the actions of others without taking it on personally. Rather than stuffing my feelings down, I chose to feel them and take care of my own needs, moment to moment… to moment. Now, that’s freedom! I no longer felt bewildered because I became clear about my choices in the present. I no longer felt alone. Instead, I made an effort to engage and connect with the people I trusted, reinforcing the sense of belonging. I wasn’t even disappointed because I satisfied my current self.
Now, don’t get me wrong, a change in perspective doesn’t wipe the default patterns clearly away. Remember, perspective only opens your mind and shows you new directions, gives you a glimpse of a greater path and potential. You still have to make the different choices and implement them over and over again. It is a diligent practice and enlightened discovery. Believe me, I was still uncomfortable but this time it was in a very different way. I had to continue to take care of myself and consistently reinforce each new choice and behavior to work for me to ensure the success of a different outcome. And I did it--each time, every time.
By the end of the day my feelings lightened and my mood lifted. I was no longer burdened by the past or events that took place. I was learning how to live in the truth of right now. Oh, and by the way, after a few weeks our friendship slowly came back on board. It’s viewed from a different perspective now but nonetheless no one was cast to the deserted island of shame. That at one time or another, everyone has either gone to or come from.
After some time, I thought about how different this whole situation turned out for me. It occurred to me coming from a situation like that I was actually happy. Then it hit me--I was struck! I realized, I walked away from that circumstance intact… I feel happy and resolved without bitterness, resentment, hurt or anger hanging on to me and I’m not alone. I thought to myself, could it be that easy to change a whole circumstance simply by making a different choice? Could it possibly be that simple…? Well, I’m here to tell you it is possible and it is that simple.
1- Are you willing to take an honest look at the comfort zones holding you back?
2- Where can a change in perspective be a source of enlightenment and rejuvenation for you?
3- How can you apply that information into your life now, today, and every day after?
Write it down. Have fun with it!
April shower's bring May flower's... What's blooming inside your heart?
Beauty is everywhere, it’s found in the flowers and in the showers!
We just need to take a deeper look and not overlook that which cleanses us as well.
Recently, within the last 2 months I’ve been experiencing complicated feelings of pain in the back portion of my heart. The pain settles deep into the layers of muscle between my shoulder blades. Then it travels up my back and along the left side of my neck with shooting pain that goes all the way up to my left ear. Sometimes the pain is so strong and debilitating it will zip down my arm into my wrist and fingertips, leaving me with a sharp and numbing sensation. The pain can be so intense at times that it can restrict my ability to move my head. In fact, one day I woke up in utter agony and as my eyes began to open I said out loud, “This is so painful, it feels like someone stabbed me in the back!” Then I realized, someone did…
Actually, more than a lot of "someone’s" have stabbed me in the back during the course of my life and with that, I knew something inside me was trying to speak. Something deep inside was trying to communicate there were adjustments to be made. Somewhere, deep inside my spirit was crying, pleading and begging for my attention to listen. This pain was urging me to take care of myself in a healthier way. In a way that would shift me and cause significant change. Therefore, this month’s focus will be on the heart.
When I focus on the qualities of energy I always begin at the most tangible position of understanding, the physical body. Pain speaks through the body, all feelings do and it gives you a location attention. For me, the physical location of attention was the back of my heart and shoulder blades or my wings. The energy that resides here, at the center of the heart projects out and moves like a funnel toward the back body. This energy effects the front and back chest, shoulders, arms, wrists and fingers. This makes up the physical section and energy extension of the heart center or 4th Chakra. When you feel fulfilled or happy, energy projects outward and expands from all sides like a balloon and when you feel unfulfilled or hurt, energy will siphon inward toward the back body. Most times, the back body becomes the dumping ground for emotions that we choose not to deal with.
The heart says, "Come and rest in the center of love for my energy is where emotions reside." The heart is the chamber of the body that generates, contains, and puts forth what you feel into the world and to those around you. The heart moves you. It teaches you about internal movement--that which motivates you from the inside. The heart doesn’t just see with certainty, the heart feels. It knows the truth and speaks through you within those silent sensations and gentle nuances that you can feel in your bones and deep inside your spirit.
The heart center deals with relationships and as social beings, our focus tends to generally be on the happiness or sadness of the various relationships we have with other people in our lives. With that said, through my exploration of this complicated pain living in the back of my heart, it became clear to me that I had been carrying deep seeded disappointment and resentments for a very long time. I stored them there. I shoved them to the back of my heart and laid them dormant for a very long time. My heart was tired, bruised and in tremendous pain. And now, it was shaking things up--the BOOM before my BLOOM, so to speak. It was quite evident that my spirit no longer wanted to hold on to those things that kept me stuck. The pain was the signal that moved me to recognize its time to unglue that which binds me. It's time to allow this movement inside me to happen so I can get on board in new ways of thought, new ways of felt sense, and new ways of being present within myself and in my relationships.
You may be able to begin to see how the threads of all the bodies; physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, energetic or ethereal connect together and begin to work here. How these bodies show up and function as a unit of information that starts to weave together the point of focus for healing. What does that mean? Well, first I felt pain (emotional body) in the back of my heart (physical body). I began to think about why it hurts so much (mental body). After thinking, feeling, and exploring the physical location I received an insight (spiritual body). Which, if I choose to make changes or not either way, my energy will be directly affected (ethereal body). In short, this is one unit or thread of communication working together to push forth a shift to cause significant change.
Now, the heart doesn’t just focus on love type relationships or just specific people but it represents all types of relationships for example, the relationship you have with your job, your work, your health, food--what you eat or what you don’t eat, your overall well-being and of course, the relationship with yourself. The heart looks at the bigger picture of relationship and asks you to make choices based on how you truly feel. The heart is no wuss but sometimes we can be… Mainly, when we discount how we feel. We run, hide, change, deny or shove the energy of the heart to the back. When we are not honest about how we feel we soil our truth and that becomes a relationship in need of repair. The kind of relationship worth repairing, wouldn’t you say?
When you place your focus on others, you lose sight of your own needs and desires of fulfillment. You neglect the relationship with your heart which by virtue of feeling, establishes the alignment of your truth. Your heart is the vehicle of motion that builds, creates and manifests the very nature of that which you truly desire to experience. The experience to live your truth. If you're unhappy in your relationships, any relationship, check your heart alignment and listen for your truth. There is clarity and gusto in your ability to thrive according to your will which in the gentle folds of the heart, simply rests the Will of God.
The truth of your soul begins the relationship with your heart and the actions you take in accordance with your truth, is the experience that grooms you to bloom. April shower's indeed bring May flower's- Where does your focus need to be--on the shower or the flower? Remember, beauty is everywhere. It's found in the flowers and in the showers. We just need to take a deeper look and not overlook that which cleanses us as well.
1- What is the truth of my heart?
2- What do the pains in my body represent?
3- In which areas of life can I add more movement?
4- What are my needs and desires in relationships?
5- Am I ready to put myself first and build relationship with the truth inside my heart?
Write it down. Have fun with it!
"Having a soft heart in a cruel world is courage not weakness"
The heart beat reminds us that strength and softness exist as one and it is in the flexibility, the fluidity of these two dynamics, that we sustain our internal power-
The body is the mechanics of being human
But the heart is the spirit.
To the vibrations of your heart....
When your heart beats,
You'll notice a strong beat followed by a softer beat
And that space between-
Is where the heart breaks just a little bit,
Every time it pumps-
Yet every time the heart breaks,
You remain strong inside that brokenness-
The stronger beat reminds you to stand up
For what you believe in,
This is YOUR truth-
And the softness that follows...
Reminds you to set boundaries,
This will keep your strength in tact-
So that you stand IN (not up) but that you stand
- IN TRUTH -
Brokenness makes you softer
And softness will make you stronger-
And so the cycle repeats itself,
Over and over again-
Jennifer is a truth seeker and artistic expressionist. She is a published author/poet. She is a certified emotional wellness coach, certified energy therapist, yoga/meditation instructor and intuitive.