To me, being vulnerable is always scary because you’re exposed in truth- You’re required to be completely honest. It becomes a tender place in time where you let go of defenses, drop masks, abandon agendas and sink into truth that is pure and simple. It's an experience of self that is stripped down to its essence in a complete, all-encompassing magnificent moment, that is you.
It takes courage to stand completely as you are in the present that you are. It means you must be willing to disarm the self and perhaps even another in an intimate moment of connection. It is the complete feeling of your inner strength in total and it offer's strength to the one you share it with, whether it’s fully accepted and integrated or not.
To be vulnerable is to be real, to exist in this world and to reverberate within the cells, even after you're gone. You can taste truth in your mouth, it's powerful and when vulnerability penetrates your being, it releases the energetic blocks that hold you back. That's why it makes you shake or feel scared or even cry... It’s a process that reveals who you are at the essence of creation. So, being vulnerable is actually the energy of your full, complete authentic self. That is your power and your power is immense, it's humbling and it deserves great honor.
- Meditation Musing, 2017
There’s no escaping it… We all get sick from time to time, some flu, cold or virus invades our privacy and takes us down. A natural born cycle that makes us count our blessings, peak our prayers and somehow, find ourselves getting a little closer to God.
Sometime last month, it hit me. I was tired, resting in bed feeling my glands swollen and sort of that itchy inflamed feeling in my ears and in the back of my throat. Yuck! (I hate those itchies!) Yet, although I was super tired and needed to rest, I felt really guilty that I was about to fall asleep. While this battle was going on in my mind, there was a quiet moment of pause when I saw a vision. This image appeared to me of a fish jumping upstream, like how salmon migrate from the ocean and swim upriver to spawn. Then I thought about what happens when a fish gets caught moving upstream and I remembered, some get stuck in the bear’s claws -- a price to pay when going against the grain. So, I decided to rest the feeling of guilt in my mind and let my body drift off to sleep.
The body and mind can intertwine in intimate relationship easily when we allow the ocean of our minds and the river of our bodies to meet and merge in its natural state of being -- an elegant, internal estuary that fuels the ecosystem of our being. My body was tired. It was under attack, invaded by foreign material and it was fighting for its life. I was exhausted and rightfully so but I also felt guilty, my mind was tortured and fighting against the grain. There was no elegant, internal estuary meeting and mingling in that moment, it was chaos!
All this until I stopped struggling upward and slipped into the basic current, the connecting concept that relates to the communication of the body and conscious awareness. Your body knows you best -- There are repercussions in going against the grain, against the wisdom and teaching of your own body. So, rest and drift off into a state where your mind can mend and your body can be heard.
When I woke up from my rest, I had more energy. The sun was shining outside and I felt to go out for a walk. Again, somewhere in the back of my mind I heard words that seemed to beat me up, “How dare you sleep?! Get up. get out and get some exercise!” (Man, those voices can be so persistent and ever demanding!). So, I put my sneakers on, jumped into my favorite purple sweater with the fuzzy white fur inside and prepared myself to walk.
Until… I felt those glands in the back of my neck swell and the glands under my chin thump with discontent. Then came that itchy, inflamed feeling in my ears and in the back of my throat again. I thought… “Ok, I hear you… You need more time.” So, I made a healthy shake to drink and instead of walking for exercise, I sat outside in the sun and allowed the sun do its wondrous magic.
Rather than moving upstream against the grain, I listened to the natural flow of the currents and allowed them to mingle, merge, and move me. Therefore, I bypassed the bears claw’s and simply headed for the sun where an elegant, internal estuary fueling the ecosystem of my being was moving and well balanced.
Most times, we’re not aware of the body/soul communications in the moments that they’re happening. We just move about, getting caught and stuck and sometimes, later on that day we wish we just would’ve just listened. You see, we have to catch those moments as they rise up in awareness and be able to let them go as they pass by, but take with us the insights they impart and then use them wisely.
There is a great distinction in going against the grain and going with the flow. Going against the grain teaches about holding on and brings up emotional patterns of denial and/or disapproval. Whereas, going with the flow teaches about letting go. It mirror’s the potential opportunities of acknowledgment and the ease of acceptance.
However, the choice is always yours-
- I invite you to find those moments of awareness that mingle and merge. That point where body and soul communication becomes your very own elegant internal estuary in which, your choices fuel your ecosystem of being in healthy more balanced ways.
- Beauty Notes, ©2017
TIS` THE SEASON OF HEART
December can be quite a magical month and fulfilling time of year. We get a chance to embrace the spirit of holidays and witness the wonder through the eyes of children and adults alike. Tis` the season of heart, when the world steps into a place of family, togetherness, and hope. It’s an end of a year that begins an active path into giving and receiving, rooted in a coming together of values and the essence of home. The season fills the atmosphere with magic; crisp air and snow falling from sky, lights aglow on streets and in homes, long gazes into loved one’s eyes by the crackles of fire and sparks of sweet-hearts. We take care, nestling into hearty foods like soups, stews, and hot chocolate. We bundle up with sweaters, scarves, blankets and loved ones and we find ourselves surround by light, the illumination of our hopes and dreams in the stillness of love within our hearts.
The heart symbolizes life, love and the engagement in partnership. The heart never leads alone... It never beats alone... One pulse follows the other in the direction of union. A sense of union requires partnership. We learn to connect and re-connect through the heart-experience, magnified between a pair of arms that allow us to reach out and touch what we love, while, cradled and comforted between two breasts that safely hold what we feel. We are given an opportunity to feel the magic of life, connection and harmony both, individually and collectively. The season of heart reminds us in order to create a spark of life, we cannot go at it alone. We simply relate and create in a blended continuum of wholeness. The heart does not beat alone... It does not lead alone... One pulse follows the other in complete unification.
This is a time of un-veiling, re-vealing, and an un-folding of self to the inner sweetness of comfort and warmth. It’s a reminder of the mother-child experience, the inner connection and bond of unconditional love. Our very own place to rest soulfully in the wonder and awe, completely disarmed and embraced in the natural state of being. The heart leads us to a clear passage and cleansing, a shedding of old, a point to nurture life and all that we live for. It is a space given in which to surrender, to lay down a clean slate, to be re-born in concept as we celebrate into the new, calm and cradled in the mother energy, inside the season of heart.
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It’s time to get out of the “cookie cutter” version of what healing should look like and shift back into our own personal guidance and experience. Sometimes, the path to healing has us feeling off center and it’s cause for questioning but we forget, feeling off center is also for good purpose. The center balances opposing sides and reveals a place of wholeness. When the scale tips toward into the wound, the other side of balance is overlooked. The gift of wholeness is to be open and available to both sides and to integrate them into conscious balance. Your personal path to healing begins inside wholeness not in one side of experience. Let’s look at pain for example. I’ve thought about pain. Pain is real. Pain is relentless. It reveals itself through the body, not just inside it. It wants to be seen. It beckons to be heard. It tugs at you every minute of every day. Pain is restrictive, trapped in the body with no space for joy and we suffer. Pain is suffering, the physical manifestation of held in, held back, shut down and buried emotion. Your physical body can become the storehouse for ignored, unacknowledged and suppressed emotional energy. Pain is an internal broadcast system for the feelings buried inside, screaming to be heard. To be acknowledged. To be cleared. To be loved.
Every healing journey will not look the same. It’s a personal pursuit-
Have you ever sat with the inner voice of your own pain?
I have. Pain is a lot more than just what we name it. It’s a culmination of stuck emotions, blocked feelings, experiences, memories, unconscious belief systems and unhealthy patterns. Because of this, healing can be an evolution of all experience and acknowledging what exists inside you, begins the path that serves as a direction. All of it is important information to construct a very intimate healing experience. Sometimes the tendency is to give up because you don’t like what you see and it can be hard to move through. This is when healing becomes dedication and time becomes discovery. I thought about pain. I’ve had pain. I’ve worked with pain and then it occurred to me. It came into me like a whole being awareness. The other side of pain, is pleasure. Pleasure. What a revelation! In all these years, it never occurred to me that pleasure was a root deficiency to my experience of pain. I was totally invested inside the pain that I missed out on any form of pleasure. I never embraced the joy of life and in being because I never thought to look at the other side of what the experience of pain had to offer.
I thank God for that moment in wholeness. It moved me. Pleasure was now in the game and enjoying my life became priority. When you embrace the other side, you stop brow beating the wound. You cease falling back into rigid, perfectionism disguised as discipline and the “trigger” has a place to go, a space to flourish. My personal healing did not look like the ideal or what I had anticipated. I found rest. I witnessed no more pushing into life or wanting to force forward. I could feel the grip loosen, I allowed some fun and sweeter foods, exercise was no longer a bloodbath but now conscious movement based on my needs for that day. Yes, I gained some weight but I also embraced that weight and loved myself anyway. My healing journey through pain helped me find a better balance within myself, a conscious balance. It helped me find the opening to the possibility of having pleasure move through me and integrate it into my experience. When you make your healing journey personal; it moves you, it changes you, it transforms you into a state of inner-conscious being. Shift away from the “call to action” approach to healing and move deeper into intimate understanding. Let that be the life-giving medicine you take in.
-Releasing Emotional Patterns
#BecomeYourInnerMostBeing #ConsciousBalance #WoundsAreOurGreatestTeachers
#SeektheOtherSide #BecomeWhole #WholnessMatters
AUTHOR OF INNER BEAUTY BLOGS
Jennifer is a truth seeker and artistic expressionist. She is certified energy therapist, emotional wellness coach, yoga/meditation instructor and intuitive. She is known her poetry and the deep care she feels for others.