Restoration is the action of returning to a place or condition
This time around the holidays can unsettle the soul and then having to navigate through every day life on top of it, can send anyone into a tail spin! During this time we often can loose sight of our needs therefore, leaving us feeling depleted, frayed around the edges and completely stressed out. Sometimes, we can find ourselves in that predicament even without the garland of holidays looping around our heads and we forget the significance in personal solitude. In those moments, we can say we're seeking restoration for our bodies, our minds, our emotions or spirit. We can categorize the need but the end result is the same, that is a need to return back to what is natural to us or to simply reconnect. In this instance, the idea of restoration becomes a calling out, a reason to get back to that state we remember and desire ourselves to be. And so we seek to do, to discover, to figure out what that is or whom is that person inside that we need to recover and/or re-discover.
"I woke up out of sorts, I just didn't feel quite in alignment. I've been trying to move forward into my soul's highest and greatest potentials yet I take a few steps and feel blocked or confused, unsure about what to do next." I started pulling out all my books, researching terms and ways, seeking counsel inside, outside, even got down on my knees with tears streaming down my face and prayed-
Then I sat in the wind, watching the leaves roll by in every direction unscathed by this unseen supposed chaos swirling about the atmosphere. There was no fight, debate, or protest the leaves just moved according to the direction of the wind and the wind, didn't focus solely on the leaves, it just weaved in and out and through any available space presented to it. I watched this interaction and relaxed, took a deep breath because fresh air brings fresh perspective and the sun was warm. The air was a touch cold on the edges of my skin but the sky was blue and mostly clear. There were even little spots of quiet clouds just motioning through the sky, gliding along a calm pace going nowhere in particular. I was in such a rush to find restoration, to understand what it means inside me that it wasn't until I put the books down, laid the search to rest, and sat among it all that I could feel the affects of returning and remember, what it means to come home.
What I learned is that restoration represents; a relaxing into the flow of life, a freedom of movement into the available spaces presented, a reminder to relax, breath deep because fresh air brings fresh perspective, to be clear about where you want to go then let the inner calm guide you without having any place or destination in particular, to trust your inner knowledge and to sit with what already exists inside you to inspire you, to move you, to accept that what you need to feel balanced, connected, and whole is waiting for you because "home" doesn't have a definition or end result, it just is and already exists inside you perfectly-perfect, we only need to come back to it. It's that simple.
Allow yourself to carve out some special time to devote purely to yourself to check in and find the stillness inside/around you to discover those meaningful moments of home.
- J. Circosta, 12/9/19
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There is a difference between creativity and imagination. Creativity is still and quiet, it is a source of abundant energy contained within you, waiting for direction and use. Imagination is the movement, the vision made manifest, the direction and precise execution of that abundant energy now ready and available for use. In the state of imagination, energy is no longer contained but now in motion, it is the complete action and use of your power. Creativity is the cavern, the womb, the cocoon containing potent energy and ideas that your imagination can run wild with.
There is a common misconception in the approach to life and manifesting your dreams, it is the thought that you are to “do” something. You are to continue to “do… do… do…” and do some more and somehow, “make” it happen. The actions put into “doing” become more and more unfocused, tiresome and ultimately a misuse of your creative power. You burn right through your energy reserves and therefore, burn out. The reality of creative energy is that it’s a natural source of energy generated within you and set aside for use when it’s fully engaged, focused and ready to fuel you towards those things you want to create. You are to “do” nothing but wait patiently and listen deeply. You are the vessel, your job is to be ready when it moves, to be steady, open and available to allow this flow of creative energy to move through you unhindered and untainted. You are the caretaker of this amazing life force created and cultivated inside you until it’s ready to be seen, to be made manifest from the inside-out.
The power of creativity, your power is in moving only when the direction and clarity is so ripe, so potent, that there is no time to question. There is no time for fear or second guessing, to be tired or resistant, there is no time because your use of time now, is used creatively. You’re no longer burning through energy in trying to “make” things happen, you’re allowing the potent energy to freely move through you, promptly and purposely. When imagination takes over and puts all that creative energy to good use, all that was once contained inside is now filling you, moving you, empowering you and successfully, right before your eyes validating your beautiful power to create.
Do not fear or damn the holding period, that’s like damning the child in the womb. Be calm, stay centered and grounded, be open and nurture your energy, rest because the creative energy, the creative power inside you is growing. It’s growing and getting stronger so it can move you, to carry you if necessary. It will lift you off your feet and you will fly. Do not move in haste, do not move at all, let it move through you. It will move you, it’s inevitable, it’s your Divine design, your birthright to be and become. Stay steadfast and trust in that, trust in your Divine essence, your creative spark of self-expression and trust in the enormity of it all because all of it, is already inside you just waiting to come out. And when that creative energy is ready to move, to manifest, to go beyond your flesh and bones, to be seen before you, you’ll know it. There will be no mistake about it and you won’t be able to stop it, you won’t want to because you’ll feel the surge and know your power. Go ahead, unplug yourself-
- J. Circosta, 10/7/2019
You cannot live in your personal balance until you begin to investigate and distinguish between the two opposite sides that run alongside it. Some call this adventure, living in extremes or swinging the pendulum between feast and famine but put more simply, it is an act of getting to know your limits to understand your center.
In your exploration of this unique and Divine thread of personal existence you must stay close to your spirit, reaching out beyond yourself only creates small fractures to the whole. Your inner balance, that seamless central stream of being has nothing to do with people, places and things outside yourself. Yet, most people will offer their opinions, criticisms, guidance, knowledge and personal experience based in their own understanding of themselves but not necessarily in their understanding of you. It’s all within their personal structure and point of balance and oftentimes, this is where confusion sets in. The distinct lines that define your personal parameters get blurred and without that strong knowing of inner self, you can get lost between the seams. You begin to second guess what’s true for you and sadly, mistrust yourself, your knowledge and everything you personally learned by experience. As a result, your inner barometer is misused, you feel misplaced and at a great loss of calm and inner stability.
Personal balance moves and fluctuates within you therefore, only you can discover it. You cannot find it outside yourself, you must go into the inner subtleties to understand. You must form relationship with the soul in order to discern. You must be patient and wait for your inner wisdom to enlighten you, to move you forward strong and balanced. When you do this, when you listen to your own spirit guiding you, teaching you through both sides of your center, your state of balance becomes Divine Balance.
Practice shifting your gaze from the external to internal. When you find yourself being challenged in any framework, rather than seeking the opinions and advice of others, practice sitting with your energy to seek your own counsel. When you don't know what to do- do nothing. Be patient and have courage, wait on your spirit. When anxieties come up, breathe deeper. Remind yourself that you trust your path and you trust yourself and you are willing to allow your next steps to reveal themselves naturally and organically. Practice working with your own knowledge, inner guidance and personal experiences, trust them explicitly so that you can truly begin to live your life in Divine Balance.
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There’s a sweet elegance in slowing down... and sensing... the deeper aspects of your inner self. It is an act of sinking into a deeper alignment, a perfect fit and balance. There is no struggle in neutrality-
The opportunity is in the awakening, the expansive awareness inside the quite mind, an innate intelligence waiting to be heard and is designed to take action with or without your support.
It takes a tremendous amount of effort to heal. It is a process of unfolding beauty and magnificence that requires no struggle on your part. It is a Divine partnership that only requires open availability to your unique process and providing a safe space to allow those gentle movements to position into perfect place. This involves your active presence, to meet yourself where you are in the moments you take those specific steps in building your new foundation, nurturing and loving yourself in complete reverence, every step of the way. The emphasis is soulfully on the needs of the self in which partnership - becomes relationship. In order to move the ship forward, we must first be able to relate.
Impatience can impede progress and is just on the other side of acceptance. Acceptance, is a form of profound love, a declaration of wholeness in each and every moment of the journey. We uncover healing as a sacred process of discovery and new found approach to creating, personally articulating a stronger more enhanced version of experience.
Heal yourself well!
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#WellbeingMatters #TreatYourselfWithCare #HealingisaDiscovery #DiscoverYourself
Something was bothering me and at first glance I tossed it in the back of me head and made an excuse for it being there. But it came up again, not with vengeance but with a gentle awareness. It was here in this place, in this moment of unyielding confrontation, I asked why? Why was it here and how could I transform it? All of it. The feelings it brought up, the thought patterns that come with it and consequently, the actions taken (repeatedly) that caused a familiar and reoccurring emotional injury.
“I don’t like him, I said. He’s mean and demanding.” Then I thought about who I am, my character, the inner attributes I share, I give without a second thought and that are innately and truly mine, without warning or reason. I continued to evaluate my thoughts and I realized, I’m valuable. I’m worthy of good things. I am generous, fruitful, I prosper and I am deserving. I stopped and said it again, I am deserving and that seemed to really hit home... I Am deserving.
Then I thought about all the things I’ve reciprocated in return to him. I’ve given my time, presence, sense of calm and peace, generosity, productivity, efficiency, kindness, compassion, positive energy and love. I thought, although he was a blessing to me at one time, I am equally and unequivocally a beautiful blessing to him in return. I don’t owe him anything and I certainly, don’t have to condone ill behavior because of some preconceived debt that I believed I owed him. There’s a difference between feeling you deserve something and having a sense of worth. A sense of worth is inherent. It is a God given birthright and value. It does not change. It is unwavering no matter what form it takes. It is yours and rooted deeply in your soul, in your substance, in your essence. A feeling of deserving is what you believe your efforts are worth. It is a state of believing in your character and having your belief systems line up with that, knowing you’ve earned what is yours. Further, a feeling of deserving must be a vibrational match to what you believe your worthy of. It must be in alignment to what you want and you must put in the effort to prepare emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually in accordance. A sense of deserving means your belief systems must be in check and your thoughts, have to be in proper alignment with that, they have to be on the same page.
To end my day, I was blessed. I returned some clothing to a department store and to my surprise there was a flash sale going on. I was handed a “mystery card” that contained hidden sale percentages. I passed it up thinking I wasn’t here to buy. I returned the garments and saw a mystery coupon on the counter that was 40% off. I put it in my bag and continued to leave the store. Before I got to the door, something brilliant caught my eye. When I turned to look at it, I saw the most beautiful ring I’ve ever seen. It took my breath away! I thought, well, I have this 40% coupon... and as I thought more about purchasing the ring, I could hear my spirit say, Deserving! Deserving! Deserving! So, said, Yes! I Am Deserving! And I took a deep breath and bought a $1,000 ring with all the surprise sale pricing, for $375!!
Live the Life you THINK you deserve!
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A new year is ahead and New Year’s Eve is right around the corner. I always wondered what makes New Year's Eve so special when it's become somewhat of a tradition to lament over the year passed or use it to try to cleanse our experience from it? It seems we try to wash away the “sins of the father” and then claim these sudden New Year's resolutions at the end of the wire? We race against time to try to be better than what we perceived ourselves as before yet neglect to remember the courage and strength that got us to this point to begin with. Why do we choose to view a whole year gone by as an enemy rather than our ally and what if we decided to claim the greater experience and learning potentials that got us to the next new year? What if New Year's Eve became a conscious reflective point in time to review all of our efforts and progress thus far? Then we would not just be celebrating a new year but we would be rejoicing, integrating and confirming our greatness. Now that, certainly makes New Year's Eve very special.
A conscious interaction with everyday life as an ally is a way to generate pure and positive energy for yourself and for those things most important to you. The definition of ally is: "to combine or unite a resource or commodity with (another) for mutual benefit. It is to merge, join or fuse." Isn’t that what we do with our life anyway? We merge with the interactions of life and our life becomes a source of personal energy affecting each day we live. Each day, presents a new opportunity to reinstate new action, new behaviors, new thoughts and responses and to be conscious of this, is a true gift or the "newness" we seek at the end of each year. Why not make that awareness potent every day? It became clear to me that everyday life is a resource and the most valuable commodity in the world, is time. So, perhaps New Year's Eve can be a celebration in how we utilized our precious time and inner life resources to consciously move us ahead.
Time is precious, rather than resolving a whole year into what you want to change or fix, choose to celebrate the full value of who you are now! Look over your year and acknowledge the time spent in cultivating yourself to better utilize your inner resources with more wisdom and without the judgement or comparison. This simple shift sets you up for motivation by inspiration rather than a false startup. By taking the time to practice giving your energy and gratitude to your abilities in those things that helped you overcome, you’ve already begun a new year in the right alignment. So, whether it’s having the courage to walk away from a dissatisfying relationship, asserting your strength to continue on your healing path, or busting through barriers, little by little until you saw some fruit on the table, take the time to self-realize so you can continue to self-actualize. Put that in your bank of awareness and make it your vision going forward. Then sit back and relax as you witness how fast you blaze your path ahead!
Discovery Exercise: Create a Victory Log! Get yourself a container and over this new year write down on a separate piece of paper every milestone, small or great and place it in your container. When New Year’s Eve comes around next year, let that container be your Victory reminder, your gift, and your Motivation by Inspiration! Remember, success can be fleeting if we don’t take the time to celebrate it, so start today. Happy New Year!
- J. Circosta, 2019
Change is constant and inevitable
We will grow and expand, experience and be very different then who we knew ourselves to be. It’s fate, our destiny to reach parts of ourselves and touch this world in ways that spin to wake us up!
Change can hurt. It moves yet immobilizes the recipient, causes fear, strikes the funny bone and we all know, the funny bone is not so funny! Change is scary and dismissive from what we once had and worked so hard for. At one time, our life felt comfortable and abundant and then suddenly, what we knew to be true, secure, and safe is ripped from underneath our feet and we’re changed. Just like that! We are changed; emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually, biologically, physiologically, our chemistry is different, our location is unfamiliar, our mind is twisted, our thought process upside down, our perspective obliterated, all of it, changed-
Perhaps, now looking back through the terrorizing cycle we can begin to see through all that, we become a little more whole then we were before, much greater than from the start of the spin. Maybe that’s why change becomes so necessary and an integral part of vitality, because it brings us to a more profound and prolific state of being, whether we like it or not. It’s the command of fate. Fate comes in and spins the wheel of life, tosses you to and fro, spits in your eye, stings where it hurts, then leaves you just as quickly as it came in and you’re changed.
Change will chip away at the ego, lore the inner child out frantically and brings us closer to God. We pray when change comes screaming through the door, we shrink back within ourselves and become ever so vulnerable. Being vulnerable can be scary because you’re exposed in truth. You are required to be completely honest and really look at what’s in front of you, what's real. The truth is, change is reality and reality can suck sometimes, yet it continues its cycle of life with or without you and in spite of itself. You have no choice but to be softer with yourself and your circumstances. Life now becomes a tender place in time where you let go of defenses, drop masks, abandon agendas, and sink into your truth, the truth that is pure and simple. It's an experience of self that is stripped down to its essence in a complete, all-encompassing magnificent moment, that is all you, the whole you.
It takes courage to change, to stand completely as you are in the present moment that you are. It means you must be willing to disarm the self in an intimate moment of connection. It is the sum total and complete feeling system of your inner strength, whether it’s fully accepted and integrated or not. To allow change is to be vulnerable, to be real, to be honest, to exist in this world in truth, to reverberate within your cells and this world, even after you're gone. You can taste truth in your mouth. It's powerful and when it penetrates your being, it releases the energetic blocks that held you back. That's why it makes you shake or feel scared or even cry... It’s a process that reveals who you are at the essence of creation.
So, to change, to feel vulnerable, is actually the energy that's needed to recognize and realize your full potential inside your complete, authentic self. That is your power and your power is immense, it's humbling and it deserves great honor on your path to destiny.
- What is changing in you and in your life right now?
- Reflect on how these changes can, are and will make you more whole.
Write it down and have fun with it!
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- J. Circosta, ©2018
We sometimes say, “I hate to break it to you…” because the truth hurts and it yields an undeniable power that literally interrupts false beliefs. It stops the illusion dead in its tracks, inhibits falsehood, redirects and reconfigures the stories. The truth suddenly changes perspective; and therefore, the view is skewed in favor of reality.
The truth has momentum, it’s a force to be reckoned with. It has no apologies, no coddle and sometimes, bursts through reality unannounced with no real manners to speak of. The truth breaks through, it is the breakthrough. It removes any propensity to hold on or to clutch and it obliterates the old paradigms that hold us back. The truth is electric, it shocks the system for us to wake up and in that moment within the shock wave, we are shattered. There is great purpose for this shattered reality, this moment of brokenness, because in order to serve the world, we must serve ourselves well first.
We are all divinely fractured in one way or another and that is the beauty of being human, we are meant to build toward wholeness. We can work toward wholeness by cultivating our spirit and begin to manifest our truth through the flesh. It’s said to be human nature to get up and strive toward something greater. The truth is, it’s the spirit inside you that recognizes the misalignment and strives from within your infinite presence to get you up and move you toward greater things, toward your greater self. It’s in the saturation of truth; that interrupts, changes perspective, shocks, electrifies and becomes the force, the momentum that is the spirit within, that urges you to step into your greatness and your human nature, just comes along for the ride.
There is no shame in experiencing brokenness because right behind that feeling is our desire to be whole. Right underneath those fractured parts is your truth, the truth of your purpose, and your unique journey into becoming unified as a complete being in light or a testament to your great understanding which is enlightenment.
We work toward wholeness so that we know the truth of who we really are.
- Take a look back over the things you overcame, those moments of divine fracture you endured and afterwards got a little closer to who you really are. Write them down and then take out the trial portion and just look at your truth. Have fun with it!
- Beauty Notes, ©2017
As inquisitive beings, we all have a striking propensity to explore, to take in life wholeheartedly and gain valuable knowledge. As physical beings, we strive toward the tangible, we want to produce the fruits of our labor in hopes to grow and evolve into a greater version of ourselves and ultimately, in our experiences. However, in just being human we forget-
We forget the knowledge in that, what we strive and reach toward in having these greater things or deeper involvement in our lives, is that the sum total of our walk, is always in search for our happiness, fulfillment, and success. We seek to find, we frustrate to know, we exacerbate to do and get done, we sometimes freeze for fear forbades us and we feel we’re not getting ahead, maybe even moving backwards...
Change strikes you! It makes the earth turn, flower’s bloom, babies born. You make a decision and the world moves, it shakes. The entire universe conspires to meet your demands and desires from deep inside your heart. It is impossible to be stagnant, the heart repeats its beat to reminds us of that, every day. So, we move; we twist and turn, we shape shift, decide, conspire, plan, gather, execute, become and become again, and again and again… Over and over, the process is everlasting, a constant churn and turmoil of evolution. There’s no turning back, it’s a revolution in evolution! We don’t just get ahead, we aren’t moving backwards, we are changing forward-
Some people change jobs, leave relationships, start new ones, get cats, buy new clothes, dye their hair, buy a car, take trips to foreign lands or nearby bed and breakfasts. Some folks take voyages across oceans and others just move. Literally, pack their stuff up, throw out the past, clean the slate and move along state lines to find some new-found life that hopefully fulfills them. It doesn't matter how bold the choice the point is we move to make change - we change to make a move. As uncomfortable as it may be, as fearful as we may feel, as questionable the decisions we made, we change forward-
And the only thing that matters is the call inside your heart, right now. This instant, there’s energy pulling you forward somewhere; toward someone, some-thing, it speaks from deep inside and moves you, leads you toward a greater self, places you in possibilities greater than where you are now. What are you reaching for, striving to be a part of, looking to experience and truly desire to ultimately bring joy into your life? What are the different and defining factors that mean something to you, that fills you, uplifts you, and re-creates you from where you are now? What do you want to experience right now?
These are the questions of change-
This is where you start and need to be very clear and concise in execution. It's not in the doing of this or that but in the crystal clarity of your heart’s hidden desires to help you change forward. The rest will fall into place by virtue of such desire, naturally. It’s the meaning of magnetism and the blueprint of fulfillment. What is the tug inside pulling you toward? Follow what you love, what feels right, what makes you smile and laugh and brings you joy. What makes you feel alive without the fight, sigh, or sunken feeling. What are those things that make you fall in love with yourself over and over again, that you can't help but share and give that very same love in return to others.
If you can do that, just that alone…
You will be successful in changing forward and step right into your happiness and fulfillment.
- Beauty Notes
We do not come into this world alone…
We are literally thrust into the universe by an expulsion of creative energy carrying the seed and soil that nurtures a brand new soul into life! We come catapulting into form securely attached in a beautiful, sacred bond of union and sustenance. Someone is right there with you and already has your back. You begin life with the most important relationship of your life, Cradled in Creation inside the balm and belly of your mother. Your mother is the first human life force you connect with and together, you establish the basis of sharing, of giving and receiving, of working together to grow and transform. Collectively, you begin to build upon a nourishing and nurturing foundation of love.
It takes an incredible amount of creative power to assert such life into manifestation and to well-preserve it. The emotional link and energetic tapestry is so strong between mother and child, that a physical cord or navel string directly connects your mother’s creative and emotional energy to your personal power and will to live. In fact, the innate creative intelligence to co-create, to bond in pure unconditional love, to take care, raise and grow life is so great inside the womb of the feminine that each month the womb is empty with no life to carry inside, we grieve. That’s why each month we may find ourselves eating everything in sight because we are trying to unconsciously fill a profound void. There can be such a deep ache inside that we cramp and curl up in pain. The loss can be so great within us that we can feel moody, cry uncontrollably, or just want to be held. We’re grieving… We grieve the tremendous loss of the potential in sharing unconditional love.
A special day in May is sanctioned to celebrate mother’s all around the world. One day puts focus, the lime light on the feminine, the woman -- my mother, your mother, thee mother that carries and connects the most powerful force in the universe, what is seen and unseen. One day out of an entire year celebrates an unbreakable bond that outlasts time, space, and reason. One day -- You may fight with your mom, you may say you don’t “need” her anymore or as much, she may have even passed on but in every scenario, that beautiful sacred bond of union and sustenance will remain with you forever and that cord -- that energetic and emotional navel string, will generate here and now and for generations to come, forever.
She’s not just your mother. She is the first teacher, the blessing and sweet gift of pure love. So, love her, love yourself as you initially experienced, and then love this world in the very same way.
God knows we need it-
- Take a moment to remember your mother... Think about all that she's shown and taught you. Think about her strengths and gifts and the same strength's and gifts she passed down to you. Think about the challenges she's shared, how you may have been of service to her and more importantly, how you worked together to build, strengthen, love and secure each other in this world. Write it down and have fun with it!
- Beauty Notes, 2017
Jennifer is a truth seeker and artistic expressionist. She is a published author/poet. She is a certified emotional wellness coach, certified energy therapist, yoga/meditation instructor and intuitive.