Sometime last month, it hit me. I was tired, resting in bed feeling my glands swollen and sort of that itchy inflamed feeling in my ears and in the back of my throat. Yuck! (I hate those itchies!) Yet, although I was super tired and needed to rest, I felt really guilty that I was about to fall asleep. While this battle was going on in my mind, there was a quiet moment of pause when I saw a vision. This image appeared to me of a fish jumping upstream, like how salmon migrate from the ocean and swim upriver to spawn. Then I thought about what happens when a fish gets caught moving upstream and I remembered, some get stuck in the bear’s claws -- a price to pay when going against the grain. So, I decided to rest the feeling of guilt in my mind and let my body drift off to sleep.
The body and mind can intertwine in intimate relationship easily when we allow the ocean of our minds and the river of our bodies to meet and merge in its natural state of being -- an elegant, internal estuary that fuels the ecosystem of our being. My body was tired. It was under attack, invaded by foreign material and it was fighting for its life. I was exhausted and rightfully so but I also felt guilty, my mind was tortured and fighting against the grain. There was no elegant, internal estuary meeting and mingling in that moment, it was chaos!
All this until I stopped struggling upward and slipped into the basic current, the connecting concept that relates to the communication of the body and conscious awareness. Your body knows you best -- There are repercussions in going against the grain, against the wisdom and teaching of your own body. So, rest and drift off into a state where your mind can mend and your body can be heard.
When I woke up from my rest, I had more energy. The sun was shining outside and I felt to go out for a walk. Again, somewhere in the back of my mind I heard words that seemed to beat me up, “How dare you sleep?! Get up. get out and get some exercise!” (Man, those voices can be so persistent and ever demanding!). So, I put my sneakers on, jumped into my favorite purple sweater with the fuzzy white fur inside and prepared myself to walk.
Until… I felt those glands in the back of my neck swell and the glands under my chin thump with discontent. Then came that itchy, inflamed feeling in my ears and in the back of my throat again. I thought… “Ok, I hear you… You need more time.” So, I made a healthy shake to drink and instead of walking for exercise, I sat outside in the sun and allowed the sun do its wondrous magic.
Rather than moving upstream against the grain, I listened to the natural flow of the currents and allowed them to mingle, merge, and move me. Therefore, I bypassed the bears claw’s and simply headed for the sun where an elegant, internal estuary fueling the ecosystem of my being was moving and well balanced.
Most times, we’re not aware of the body/soul communications in the moments that they’re happening. We just move about, getting caught and stuck and sometimes, later on that day we wish we just would’ve just listened. You see, we have to catch those moments as they rise up in awareness and be able to let them go as they pass by, but take with us the insights they impart and then use them wisely.
There is a great distinction in going against the grain and going with the flow. Going against the grain teaches about holding on and brings up emotional patterns of denial and/or disapproval. Whereas, going with the flow teaches about letting go. It mirror’s the potential opportunities of acknowledgment and the ease of acceptance.
However, the choice is always yours-
- I invite you to find those moments of awareness that mingle and merge. That point where body and soul communication becomes your very own elegant internal estuary in which, your choices fuel your ecosystem of being in healthy more balanced ways.
- Beauty Notes, ©2017