I Learned I was Valuable
 

Our eyes never really quite met and my mind
wandered down barren halls filled with white noise,
full of grey sound, static-
Your voice,
void of content that even the swings swayed 
To Stop-
and little kids lost interest in the circus.
Mumble-jumble,
tongue flapping, spittle-dribble tossed words 
Spoken only- for your amusement.

You      -      Amuse     -      Yourself.

​A clown, with no make-up on but your lines are still blurred. 
Bleary-eyed blather, you go on... and on... and on… 
Let me hear my own thoughts! 
Put my cup in the right place. I am right handed, you know.
 
I learned I was valuable- 
That day, the day I saw you last standing in rose colored shades 
a peek, through frosted pink glass, it was time. 
I knew in my mind you, were unaware.

I learned I was valuable-
When I showed up wearing the sun in my eyes 
and your head was wrapped in dark fog. You didn’t notice
yellow was so bright, standing in the stunning day of light.
That moment, ​you filled yourself up in front of me, 
blinded and bloated, chitty-chat chatter yet you,
could never bear the battered and blistered pangs, persisting
deep inside my gut-
 
I learned I was valuable-
When the Keys to my Kingdom fell to the floor and my heart- 
lay open at the beat of your feet. My exhale, waiting...
for a step or even just a flinch but never, ever-
to bend to your will again.
I watched the hero fight for His love, even beyond
what the screen could hold and I knew, there was more-
There was much... much... more.
 
I learned I was valuable-
When I stepped out of my own skin and time... 
gave way to the fields; to play, to move through breeze of past,
climbing up to the tip of that mountain wearing,
the Sun in my Eyes-

I was valuable-

And with that...
I chose to never see you again.


- J. Circosta, Tiny Poet
I Learned I was Valuable, ©2016, Poems From Passion, ~ Poetry in Love ~