I Learned I was Valuable
 

Our eyes never really quite met-
And my mind wandered,
down barren halls
Filled-
with white noise,
Full-
of grey sound,
Static-

Your voice,
Void of content- 
That even the swings,
Swayed
              to
   Stop-
And little kids lost interest in the circus.
 
Mumble-Jumble, tongue flapping,
Spittle-dribble tossed words-
Spoken only, for your amusement.

You      -      Amuse     -      Yourself.

​A clown with no make-up on
But your lines are still blurred. 
Bleary-eyed blather,
You go on
          And on
               And on…
Let me hear my own thoughts-
And put my cup in the right place, 
I am right handed you know.
 
I learned I was valuable- 
That day-
The day I saw you last.
Standing in rose colored shades,
A peek through frosted pink glass, it was time.
I knew in my mind, you- 
Were unaware.

I learned I was valuable-
When I showed up, wearing the sun in my eyes 
And your head was wrapped in dark fog.
You didn’t notice yellow was so bright,  
Standing in the stunning day of light.

That moment-
You filled yourself up in front of me,
blinded and bloated - chit-chatting chatter. 
Yet, you-
could never bear the battered and blistering pangs,
persisting deep inside my gut.
 
I learned I was valuable-
When the keys to my Kingdom fell to the floor
And my heart- 
Lay open at the beat of your feet.
My exhale, 
          Waiting...
For a step or even just a flinch
But never, ever-
To bend to your will again.

I watched the hero fight for His love, 
even beyond what the screen could hold
And I knew, there was more-
There was much,
         much,
more...
 
I learned I was valuable-
When I stepped out of my own skin
And time... 
Gave way to the fields;
to play, to move through the breeze of past,
climbing up to the tip of that mountain,
wearing the Sun in my Eyes-

I was valuable-

And with that...
I chose to never see you again.


- J. Circosta
Poems From Passion
I Learned I was Valuable, ©2016