10/5/2014 6 Comments There's an OK in CoOKies So today, I was not feeling ok with myself. In fact, I'm finding that to be true more and more. On one hand, it's really great to be conscious of this stuff, right!? Then on another hand, it's kind of well... Let's just say, a polite reminder that I've got work to do if I'm going to take responsibility for my life.
- I sat today and thought. I thought about random things, cool things, things I want, things that are happening and all other kinds of crazy, cool surface things. Things, things, things… Yes, and more things! Then somehow, I began to sense something deeper something that seemed to be behind my thoughts… Something that definitely had an energetic presence but didn't have any real words to speak of or at least that I could comprehend because this presence, seemed to live behind the thoughts swirling in my head. So you may ask, how could that be? Well, I asked the same question and in order to find out, I had to sit with it... So, I just dropped in. Wheeee…. It was there, in sitting with my feelings, I found myself underneath the stories. I was smack-dab right in the middle of an awareness that eluded me! I fell into a pocket of some kind of clarity, a definite knowing that something else was going on but I was not quite on the same page with it yet. I couldn't quite grasp the concept but somehow, this energetic presence- this wordless void, seemed very familiar. In fact, it was eerily familiar… Then I realized, I knew this feeling. I didn't know the language but I knew it's pattern and it was a pattern that I've felt over and over again, for a very long time. When we are unaware of our seamless, exhaustive repetitions of old thought patterns, they move into our feeling centers and then those feelings get comfortable inside us. When this happens, the dialog no longer exists, it just becomes pure energy. So, what could I do!? Well, I went for an internal expedition! It was like trying to guess the secret ingredient in a deliciously baked goodie:) Like that moment when you can sniff a hint of cinnamon in a chocolate chip cookie. The cookie is still a cookie and we all love chocolate chip cookies! However, there are foundational ingredients that make up the cookies we love. Some ingredients, like eggs are essential to make the consistency of the cookie and some ingredients, like cinnamon or nutmeg we add for an explosion of taste-bud surprises! We may still love the ole` run-of-the-mill chocolate chip cookie that has existed for decades but when we add in those surprise ingredients, we give the cookie more substance and presence. It makes us more aware of the cookie as a whole and we appreciate its flavor- this cookie stands out! Then I thought, perhaps, this is what was happening for me? Maybe, I was being introduced to a “mind ingredient” if you will, that was either going to make my whole being explode with tasty surprises or maybe, this ingredient was familiar in a way that needed to be transformed… Some expeditions are not done in a day and it does take time to know which ingredients work for you. Perhaps, therein, lies “the work” I mentioned to start with or maybe, even better I should say, therein lies the experience necessary in preparation for the cookie of your dreams! I guess, what is so great about these surprise ingredients is that they makes us re-member we can make our cookies any way we want, at any time we choose, and in accordance with the taste we want to experience. Maybe not being ok, is ok- - It obviously makes a better cookie:) Jennifer
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Bruchy
12/31/2014 07:24:00 am
I soo love this article. Well written & deep.
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Jennifer
12/31/2014 10:36:35 am
Thank you so much Bruchy! I'm really glad you enjoyed the article and so grateful for your comment and feedback:)
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TIS` THE SEASON OF HEART
December can be quite a magical month and fulfilling time of year. We get a chance to embrace the spirit of holidays and witness the wonder through the eyes of children and adults alike. Tis` the season of heart, when the world steps into a place of family, togetherness, and hope. It’s an end of a year that begins an active path into giving and receiving, rooted in a coming together of values and the essence of home. The season fills the atmosphere with magic; crisp air and snow falling from sky, lights aglow on streets and in homes, long gazes into loved one’s eyes by the crackles of fire and sparks of sweet-hearts. We take care, nestling into hearty foods like soups, stews, and hot chocolate. We bundle up with sweaters, scarves, blankets and loved ones and we find ourselves surround by light, the illumination of our hopes and dreams in the stillness of love within our hearts.
The heart symbolizes life, love and the engagement in partnership. The heart never leads alone... It never beats alone... One pulse follows the other in the direction of union. A sense of union requires partnership. We learn to connect and re-connect through the heart-experience, magnified between a pair of arms that allow us to reach out and touch what we love, while, cradled and comforted between two breasts that safely hold what we feel. We are given an opportunity to feel the magic of life, connection and harmony both, individually and collectively. The season of heart reminds us in order to create a spark of life, we cannot go at it alone. We simply relate and create in a blended continuum of wholeness. The heart does not beat alone... It does not lead alone... One pulse follows the other in complete unification. This is a time of un-veiling, re-vealing, and an un-folding of self to the inner sweetness of comfort and warmth. It’s a reminder of the mother-child experience, the inner connection and bond of unconditional love. Our very own place to rest soulfully in the wonder and awe, completely disarmed and embraced in the natural state of being. The heart leads us to a clear passage and cleansing, a shedding of old, a point to nurture life and all that we live for. It is a space given in which to surrender, to lay down a clean slate, to be re-born in concept as we celebrate into the new, calm and cradled in the mother energy, inside the season of heart. Love, Jennifer #HeartSeason #SpiritofCalm&Comfort #MotherEnergy #CradledInHeartEnergy #TistheSeasonforMagic #HeldinLight CONSCIOUS BALANCE
It’s time to get out of the “cookie cutter” version of what healing should look like and shift back into our own personal experience and guidance. Sometimes, the path to healing can feel off balancing and can cause concern. We forget that being off balance is also for good purpose in defining it. The act of balance looks to the center of opposing forces to reveal a place of wholeness. This is the path to healing. The gift in that is in being open and available to both sides to integrate them as a point of conscious balance.
Let’s look at pain for example. Pain is real. It’s relentless. It reveals itself through the body. It wants to be seen. It beckons to be heard. It tugs at you every minute of every day. Pain is restrictive, trapped in the body with no space and we suffer. Pain is suffering, the physical manifestation of being held in, held back, shut down and buried within your own emotions. Your physical becomes the storehouse for emotional energy that has been ignored, unacknowledged and suppressed. Pain is a barometer, an internal broadcast system for the feelings buried inside, screaming to be heard. To be acknowledged. To be cleared. To be loved. Every healing journey will not look the same. It’s a personal pursuit- Have you ever sat with the inner voice of your own pain? I have and it had a lot to say. Pain is a lot more than just the name we gave. It’s the culmination of stuck emotions, blocked feelings, experiences, memories, unconscious belief systems and because of this, pain can be the source of evolution. Acknowledging what exists inside you, begins the path that serves as a healing direction. All of it is important information. Sometimes, the tendency is to give up because we don’t like what we see and it can be hard to move through. This is when healing becomes dedication and time invested becomes discovery. I’ve thought about pain. I’ve been in pain. I’ve worked through and with pain. It occurred to me, like a whole being awareness that the other side of pain, is pleasure. What a revelation! It never occurred to me that pleasure could be a root deficiency to the experience of pain. I was totally invested inside the pain that I missed out on any form of pleasure. I thank God for that moment in wholeness. Pleasure was now part of understanding personal balance and became a priority. When we embrace the other side, pain can rest. We cease falling back into rigid, perfectionism disguised as discipline and the “trigger” has a place to go, a space to flourish. My personal healing did not look ideal or what I had anticipated. I found rest. There was no more pushing or forcing life forward. The grip was loosening and I took in some fun, sweeter foods, conscious movement based on my needs rather than any “should’s.” My healing journey through pain helped me find a better balance within myself, a conscious balance. When you make your healing journey personal, it moves you, changes you, transforms you. Shift away from the “call to action” approach to healing and move deeper into intimate understanding. Let that be the life-giving medicine you need. Love, Jennifer🌸 Gentle Touch Healing Healing through Compassion - Inner Beauty Blog, Conscious Balance, Tiny Poet, 4.19.2024 AUTHOR OF INNER BEAUTY BLOGSJennifer is a truth seeker and artistic expressionist. She is certified energy therapist, emotional wellness coach, yoga/meditation instructor and intuitive. She is known her poetry and the deep care she feels for others. Categories |
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